Wow.. it has been quite a while since I last posted here. Life has been busy? In reality, I was steady-with-an-Eddie (not his real name, of course), and had promised to not post about our relationship while we were in it. But, the party is over and all bets are off. It was, indeed, fun while it lasted. A lot of fun at times (ooh-la-la).So, what is it about a relationship that is so hard? I thought I was capable of an 80/20, even a 90/10 cut - with me giving the greater amount - for awhile. Sadly, reciprocation was not only not forthcoming; he simply became mean. Mean words. Mean acts. Apologies only carry one so far. As for him.. I wish I knew. His final shot was that I was simply convenient. The fact that he pulled this out of his hat in my house was a bit appalling. No one puts Baby in the corner? huh! No one gets to say cruel things to me in my house. Not anymore. Not ever. Been there, did that - hated it.
Now, don't misunderstand, he was not physically abusive. In fact, one of the things that kept me hanging on was the physical! It was phenomenal, and I am nothing if not a sucker (pun intended??) for good sex. Baby, Baby, Can't You Hear My Heart Beat!
I may be full circle again, but it is not without some good stories to tell, and a feeling that most of the time was time well spent. The question is, where to go from here...
